Thursday, January 14th, 2010
My boyfriend texted, “Love you” to me before work this morning. It wasn’t the first time he’d told me, but I cried this time too. I sat there on my bed, with one boot successfully zipped up my left leg and the other looking woeful next to me, and I cried. Without sound or expression, [...]
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Wednesday, December 30th, 2009
It’s a reflective time of year and for me the end of the 00′s, as they’re calling them, not only marks the end of the decade but also the end of my 20s. I guess you could say it’s gotten me thinking. Quite simply, I’m not at all where I thought I’d be as I [...]
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Monday, November 2nd, 2009
Sometimes I really fucking hate the Internet. The way it enables people to have separate lives, conversations, flirtations. I hate google in particular. The way it enables those lives to become less separate. Knowing too much is right at my fingertips. You think you know a person, and then you google them, and learn all [...]
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Friday, September 25th, 2009
I had tea with a friend of mine recently, over which she relayed how she’d broken up with her boyfriend of four years. She wanted to commiserate, to rejoice, to make plans, to breathe some fresh air. She knew I’d understand her current state of emotions. She knew I’d be able to relate. And she [...]
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Monday, August 24th, 2009
A friend of mine is turning 24 later this week. Twenty-four. She looks more like she’s 19! The really funny thing about it though is that she actually thinks she’s getting old. Call it a design flaw of my mind, but I can’t help thinking about what I was like at her age (and yes, [...]
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Sunday, June 21st, 2009
“I get the sense you think I’m going to up and leave you at any moment,” he said with those piercing eyes that see right through me and that slight southern whisper that I tease him about but really love. “It doesn’t have to be that way you know. I can be the constant in [...]
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Friday, April 24th, 2009
I walked from the train station this morning, humming a song to myself, smiling at the silly, obese, suburban office park geese, tipping my head backward, eyes closed, breathing in the sunshine. What’s the worst that could happen, my consciousness whispered into my ear. I already know that excitement, the optimism of falling in love. [...]
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