Monday, November 8th, 2010
“This shouldn’t hurt a bit,” the intern told me as she pricked the skin of my shin. “Anything?” “No, not really,” I admitted even though I did feel the needle poke and settle. I laid there on the acupuncturist’s table and tried to think of more pleasant things as she continued. Whales swimming south from [...]
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Tuesday, November 2nd, 2010
I haven’t written in nearly a month. Instead of writing, I’ve been cooped up with my thoughts. I can’t seem to escape them. I can’t seem to articulate them. And I can’t seem to come to much of a conclusion except to say I keep feeling like life is passing me by. All around me [...]
Filed under: cohabitation, crash and burn, crossroads, depression, domesticity is overrated, engaging boyfriends, family, friends, jaded, Just Another Day in Crazy, quiet desperation, singletons, so what if i scream?, wakefulness by Nic
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Monday, October 4th, 2010
I’ve been a bad little blogger lately. I haven’t been writing, reading, or commenting. I’ve watched my Google Reader run amok and have simply sat by. I’ve fallen terribly behind. I’ve been a bad friend lately too. I haven’t been making plans, haven’t been emailing or calling, even texting. I’ve gone quiet without warning or [...]
Filed under: blogging about blogging, depression, wakefulness, work in progress by Nic
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Tuesday, September 14th, 2010
Sitting there in front of the blank page, cursor blinking, I struggled with where to begin. Normally, it takes only one sentence of inspiration and then I’m off. One sentence. One phrase even. Nothing. In a flurry of spontaneity, I reached for a stubby, unkempt notebook and my giraffe pen (very good for the tapping [...]
Filed under: a thing of beauty, blogging about blogging, creative time management, depression, in memory, just say 'when', knowing, whimsy by Nic
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Thursday, September 9th, 2010
There is a reason I do not write sometimes; do not write like I have not written lately. My reason is nothing like so many other bloggers before me, but it’s not for want of legitimacy, nor lack of self-realization. My priorities haven’t shifted, my desire to write has not lessened, my ideas for “the what” have not gone vacant. [...]
Filed under: blogging about blogging, crash and burn, depression, poor choices, quiet desperation, wakefulness by Nic
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Wednesday, August 18th, 2010
As my regular readers can attest, I. Am. Not. A. Baby. Person. But, wouldn’t you know, on a visit to Mara after The Baby was born, he actually didn’t scream bloody murder when I held him! In fact, he fell asleep. Bizarre child. Can you imagine? Which is when my friend’s husband asked if I [...]
Filed under: childhood, crash and burn, depression, family matters, friends, mothering, no jokes, quiet desperation, romper room, singletons, things people say by Nic
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Friday, June 4th, 2010
Tomorrow, I turn 30. 3-0. As in the age that I thought at the beginning of my twenties I’d be married and be done having all the kids I planned to have. Beyond that I hadn’t invested much thought. It was my small town mentality at work, my “worldview” as you could call it. And, [...]
Filed under: a thing of beauty, blogging about blogging, crossroads, depression, in memory, in transit, jaded, just say 'when', knowing, no birthday tears please, this is now, wanderlust, work in progress, write on by Nic
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