I. Give. Up.
Monday, October 27th, 2008The Cagey One and I have spoken a total of nine minutes this month. Nine. The last time we spoke, he said, “I’ll call you later or something.” Trying to back off gracefully, I waited. That was two weeks ago.
I thought that he was different, that he wasn’t “that” guy. I saw more in him and from him than this inexplicable disregard. But I guess I was wrong. It all makes me feel….foolish. I feel foolish.
I merit much more than the slow fade. And, for whatever reason, I feel like I merit much more from him especially. Maybe it’s because we’re from the same hometown, know some of the same people, and were up-front about not playing games. Or maybe it’s just that I actually really like him.
Whatever his reason for not calling me back, for not even sending a “have a good time in NYC” or a “how was it?” text, I’m not ashamed to say that I know it’s not my fault. And I’m not ashamed to admit that he’s made me feel no better than some random girl he met in a bar.
I know I’m worth more than that. I thought he knew that too.
Toss em! This one sounds like one of those boys who has no CLUE what they want beyond a night or two of “fun.” They should wear some kind of badge so we know to avoid them and not get sucked in! (or sucked ON). NEXT!
Don’t worry sweetie. Sounds like y’all always have options. What happened to Midnite Sk8r Boy? Or Lonely Best Fried? Or dare I even mention….Him?
He’s out there! You’ll find em. And I can’t wait to read about it when you do. sending big hugs for you.
The slow fade. Ugh. You DO merit much more than that. I know they’re not really all the same, but sometimes it sure seems like they are.
I am sorry this is happeneing to you. But if it helps I really like reading your blog
-Haley
anniep- thanks for saying that. I’m not sure who you mean by Midnight Sk8r Boy though?
chica- yeah, I’m still bothered by this more than anything I think…being wrong about him. It just doesn’t seem like something he’d do. Except that he did it.
Haley- thank you. And it does.