Breathing Out
Tuesday, October 14th, 2008
It’s fall again. And things are slowing down at last. I’m getting back to life as usual. The Saturday morning farmer’s market in the twilight of its season. Long walks along the lake before I curse its chilly, windswept expanse. And cozy Sundays at home under a blanket on the couch watching Netflix movies.
After a frenzied summer filled with travel to visit family and friends, mastering the Macy’s wedding registry, braving my ten-year high school reunion, and the surprise of dating again; I welcome this fall in particular and the room to breathe it brings.
I welcome it, but find myself with far too much time to think about….things. Things that keep me up late into the night. Between the literal and figurative ghosts in my life, I guess you could say that lately I’ve been feeling a bit beaten down, a bit exhausted, and more than a bit in need of a break.
So, my listless heart is off to New York again. To get lost in that nameless mass, to stroll in an iconically autumnal Central Park, to take coffee in the Village, to wander aimlessly for a time, if for but a day or two at least.
And yes, I will be alone- as anyone is ever alone in New York. Happily.
i am very familiar with those figurative ghosts. also in the thick of the too much thinking phase. i hope that you are able to find some peace and comfort in the changing seasons, and hopefully, there will be some very good things on the horizon for you.
Lucky lucky you in NYC. Take me with you! I am DYINGGGGGGGG to go.
Everyone has ghosts! I feel this fall has been a real time to ponder life and possible life changes. Everyone I know in real life and everyone I read about and pretend I know, have all been seemingly going through similar feelings and thoughts. Must be the weather! It is good to sort things out, and who knows when you are there maybe you will “wander” into something or someone that puts some wind in your sails! Thanks you for your honesty I enjoy reading!
-Haley
PS: that ghost shit is terrible! MOVE!